Driving into Heaven

Strength in Softness 

"It takes courage to heal... especially so far from home." - Bijan (my dear friend)

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I embark on my one-way journey to India.

Tomorrow, I begin my second phase of healing: spiritual emotional healing.

Physically, I am the healthiest I have been since I was fourteen (link below).

Spiritually and emotionally, I become healthier each day, for this journey never ends.  

I am grateful that my emotional baseline is happy. 

I am also aware of my massive concrete walls,

the walls that I had built

to encapsulate my emotional center, 

the walls that I had built

to prevent any fear-based emotion from seeping out of my heart

and into my being, 

the walls that blocked the truth-

truth of the unknown

truth that my body may die

this truth

that I failed to see

my walls masked from me

had I met the truth

it would have robbed

the little bit of hope,

the little bit of light,

the little bit of life,

that kept me alive.

I survived.
I am healthy.

I am ready to re-visit those times,
I am ready to feel those hidden emotions.

It is time to Remember.

It is time to journey back through the darkness to return to the light. 

It is time to use my moon to meet my sun.

It is time to dive deeply and rise fully.

Tomorrow, I gently place the world down.

Tomorrow, I leave for India.

I know where I will be staying for the first four nights.
The rest will unfold as I journey

I plan to travel within and outside of India for several months.
I have intentions and have tried to rid myself of expectations.

With grit and grace,
I will journey around the world,
and back home, 
back to my heart center.

Danielle Nicole Preiser, I am ready to fully meet you.

I already love you.